感觉有点⋯⋯

不知為甚麼，今年雖是老一些，感情上應該有些平穩，不應該被身邊的周遭事影響。

也還是情不自禁地悶悶不樂。想了些不高興的事情。

還以為人到這年齡也學會了怎麼處理人生不愉快的時候⋯⋯平時不想的卻慢慢會浮現起來。

也由不得我來決定。

我期待30的到來。期待生活美滿充實的一刻。期待自由到來的那一天。但有可能，30的時候⋯⋯我還是會有今天的感觸。想法也有可能不會改變到。人只能往前望前。期望和盼望，希望和等待改變。又有我們幾個可以順利的獲得自己尋找的那個春天呢？

幾時才會看到藍藍的天空，白白的雲⋯⋯還是必須等到（真的）花兒都謝了？我們人生還會有幾個春天呢？

不想了。還是要熬過來的，就不如樂觀一點，微笑地面對迎面邇來的苦難和苦惱。

多25分鐘，又老一歲了。

发升：生日快樂。

Waiting for the bus in the srizzle

I am pretty sure the emo weather has rubbed off some of its troubling affairs of the heart onto me. Just suddenly felt emo thinking about things and looking at people walking past... It's been almost a month since my first step into working life. How many more steps are ther before the end of the road?perhaps no end?

I saw a NUS shuttle bus go past and pondered about the first time I took that shuttle service. Some times in life when the stage is over it's just over. Nothing can bring it back no matter how hard you attempt.. Like the gripping sand analogy... The tighter you try to hold onto something the faster it escapes from you. Guess it's only right that all of us look and move forward. This is the countless time I'm writing stuff of this nature till I m a little sick.

Whatever darkness that looms overhead, (how apt the bus lights were just switched on, yes I am on the bus to gym), light is not far. Even in the darkness we'r not alone. Hold on, hang on and find the inner strength to move on. My problems may be insignificant to others but may mean the world to others... Each of us have a set of principles of dealing with things, with life... Mine's as such.

Grumble grumble and it's done. Dun like to nag. :)

out :X

So many random thoughts

Recently there have been many random thoughts going through my mind... to the extent that I think it is disturbing my rest. I have been waking up in the middle of the night (to do random stuff like pee, wake up to check that the window is closed so that rain won't seep in, to make sure that my toilet lights are off as well as the corridor ones)

Whether life threatening or meagre details of life, I kind of can't help but not rest adequately. Yet, as I shared with some, the typical week goes something like this:

Monday energetic for work and at after work...
Tuesday same as above
Wednesday same as above sauf the less energetic part of the evening sleeping as early as 9p.m.
Thursday a little hard to get out of bed in the morning and slightly dragging my feet to the bus stop
Friday harder to wake up yet motivated by the thought of 5.30pm, ends up sleeping at 2a.m. or later
Saturday waking up early due to the sudden opening of eyes, spends the entire day out and ends up home late at night
Sunday waking up early and crossing my fingers that it will be sunny spending the day at the pool in the sun for the entire day till the night falls dinner and then back home to prepare for day 1 to come all over again

Of course this wouldn't be the case for the rest of my working life (I wouldn't allow it to be)

I have been busy/ away from my friends for some time and I think it is time to start getting familiar again! You people should stop hiding in your caves and under your blankets!

:)