It's my birthday and I can do what I want...

well, I slept till almost 1pm, feeling the age growing on me. =P

Special thanks to the special people in my life who came to my place. Speechless as I did not expect to see so many people.. A big THANK YOU for being part of my life and I can see this company and friendship lasting many years from now. And when I am away from Singapore, you all will be missed dearly.

One of my friends sms me just when I was about to wake up and said 'wake up birthday boy, you have already slept for 24years..." and to think about it, I should really change my lifestyle and sleeping habits and start waking up early and well, sleeping early too. Find other stuff to do in the morning like having breakfast or something rather than just sleeping it away.

Now, I'm still yawning. and hungry... and I recall some weeks ago where I suddenly felt like eating a birthday cake. Now that I had one last night, I have a craving for another! ahhaha... maybe I shall go buy myself another one later. =)

Alors, thank you once again people for making this day special for me.

New fountain at Suntec City

Earlier today I went out with Mrs Zhou (June Lee) for lunch and we wandered around.. from City Hall to Marina to Suntec then Sim Lim Square... something cool is coming up at Suntec. New shop spaces and a nicely decorated fountain. Music playing, mystical blue lights with water flowing down from the top.. How nice if I have something like this in my home. Like build one of these in one of the spare rooms that I have in the house. hahahha

Day dreaming again.

*Cough

Today, or rather, a few moments ago, was the first Saturday after a long time that I stayed home. Well largely because I had been busy working on weekends that I seldom have the opportunity to do so. until today that is... cos' the medication I took really knocked me out and after heading out to collect my air ticket to France in the morning, I came back home, looked for a replacement for my shift and went to bed. Slept from 2+ till 7+pm and woke up to stone. Really nothing going on in my life now as all I want to do is to recover.

There's so much to eat, so much to do, so much to see etc...

Anyway, my air tickets are in my hands and the flight details... all you probably gotta know is that it is on the 9th September, 8:40pm. Which means I will probably go to the airport at 6+pm... after that, adieu and see you all in January 2008.

"Catch me if you can"

I'm

1. easy to please
2. working later even though
3. sick
   
4. different from two months ago
5. sick right now
6. excited about the new songs in my ipod
7. easily satisfied
8. stoned
9. desmond
   
10. looking forward to the 9th September
    

as that's the day I'm leaving things behind in Singapore the way they are and flying to France for a new stage in life.

Afterall

There's only this much you can do online.

ZZZzzzzzzzzz.....

Oh, and it's 9 days and counting. A gentle reminder - I am still raising fund for 'Help Desmond Travel Europe' Fund... so please try to contain your excitement about choosing a present for me but instead, be simple this year and give ang bao! (I know I am thick skin. Just don't want to waste the efforts and money on things that I may not use etc. For those who already planned and bought/ etc... merci beaucoup.)

Progress

Alright, another step done.

The school in Paris has received my application for accommodation and that's one step closer to my trip. Next, Visa, insurance, etc etc etc...

Slowly, I'll be gone. Before you know it.. hahhaa

不值得

To some of my friends out there. This is what I can share with you to help you out.

除了想你除了爱你, hu ~我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记整理心情, hu ~我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过, 你在敷衍我 一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心, 无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫, 不值得我考虑 不值得我爱过你,
这种回忆不值得我提起 , 不值得想起 不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃, 早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你, 不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心, 放弃爱你

除了想你除了爱你, hu ~我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记打开心情, hu ~我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过, 你在敷衍我 一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心, 无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫, 不值得我考虑 不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起, 不值得想起 不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃, 早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你, 不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心, 不为你而放弃爱情
不为你而毁了心 我决定不为你而毁了心

I have...

a new toy...

And that makes Desmond a happy boy deep down inside.

Simple, uncomplicated gadget for a simple, uncomplicated person. (hhaha...go ahead and show your disgust at this statement. hahaa)

I like my new toy.

Eh...

Another failed attempt at flying the kite.

Oh well... seems like we need a typhoon before our kites can fly.

And I've never felt so tired cycling before. Something is wrong.

hahha...

Never give up.

Songs that are just... nice.

Take some time to listen to these songs if it pleases you... each of them are slow easy listening songs that well, with meaningful lyrics. Among the most frequently played in my ipod that definitely get me feeling "awwww and ohhhhhh"

Never fails to get me into the mood of stoning by the window looking at the sky and the clouds pass by.

Never fails to get me wanting to lie in bed at night with my earphones plugged deep into my ears so the music surrounds me.

Gets me into the slow-moving Sunday mood...

Well... it's up to you if you wanna hear it. But like I believe in, good music are meant to be shared. Voluntarily, and not forced. Different people have different taste.

irritated.

When is enough enough?

My mum nags. She does. I thought I have gotten over it. At times, I act dumb and not reply in order not to aggravate the situation. She demands us to do certain things for her, and when she wants it, there's no two ways about it.

Just the other day, I went to have a hair cut and afterwhich, dinner at Toa Payoh. My mum called and ask if I was able to fetch her home from the coach terminal since she just returned from M'sia. Well, I couldn't because I did not have my dinner. During dinner, called again and again I said I was not ready.
She said she'll take a cab back. Called again, no cab! Still cannot come? Such a useless son.

A day later, she was talking on the phone and complained to my cousin... "Oh, last night blah blah blah... have this kind of son, no point!"

... ... ...

Every once in a while, we, as her children, have to buy newspapers for her. And being my mum, she wants things specifically. Evening newspapers mean evening newspapers. No morning issues or other types. So, when she says "if it is not available, you can get the other kind what.".... and when you get the other, the response goes like this.. "why you buy this one? it's not something I will read because there's stocks and other stuff that I'm not interested in...why you buy huh?"

I asked "you are with your friends who drive now, ain't you able to drop by a petrol kiosk or something to get the papers? I'm not off work yet and I cannot guarantee the papers."

Response: "My friends will send me directly home ma, why you so lazy?!"

Ha Ha Ha. I just can't help but laugh at this point. I recall the time where I had to drive to 4 petrol kiosks in order to get the correct issue of newspaper for her. I recall walking to a hawker about 2km (one way) away on foot to get a specific dish for her. With no words of thanks...

You tell me. What do I really have to do?

I'm running out of patience. There's only this much to one's patience.

Problems / situations

Last night I spent time talking... helping out a friend who faces a similar situation as me. I wouldn't call it a problem that we face. Situation I guess will be a better alternative. And even though I am still in my recovery stage, I said things that I reflected upon myself. Applying those very words to myself and convince myself that it will really be okay.

I will get tired of everything, and I know that come September, it'll be a new start. I may so called be escaping. Leaving things behind and move on. I've already done so in some parts of my life. Like I kept saying last night, there's really no point in holding onto something/someone when it's obviously not working for you. Tough as it is, I choose to let go. Hoping the best for everyone. If you choose to 'indulge' yourself in this 'illusion' that has been created solely by yourself, there's no one else but (realize this...) yourself who can take you out of it.

Everyone's gotta be strong about things, about life. Everyone's gotta learn to take care of themselves because, really... at the end of the day, we're all alone. No one's forever there for one another even though they can try. People come and go, some leave faster than you expect. You leave some for others. Heard from somewhere - "Lives may cross each other's paths, but they (sadly), did not intertwine."

Brace up. Live your life the way you want it, and don't regret it. If misery is what you are heading for, go ahead and stick by it. Just don't do things that end up hurting those around you.

To a better tomorrow, and a stronger you.

I can't believe this.

I've been made to drink 'water with burnt amulet'...

Oh man... you should see the expression on my face.

Randomness..

Why tell everything when you don't hear anything?

Letting go requires the least physical strength, and yet, it's the toughest thing to do.

Sometimes, there's dreaded silence, where you no longer know what to say because, you are unable to anticipate the reaction. Don't want to know the reaction.. so shut up.

Places remain the same. People don't. Circumstances don't and situations never.

Back from ulu town.

climbing cavesflying kiteslong car ridesbeach walksphoto taking during climbwater: source of lifeMeditation works best at the waterfallsAt the end of each journey, everyone's bound to be alone. When that time comes, you alone decide what's best for you. :)