an Emo entry

Perhaps it would be better if I talk a little more to people around me rather than appearing aloof.

Perhaps it would be better if I pay a little more attention to those around as well.

Perhaps it would be better if I put in a bit more effort in making people feel secure about my presence.

Perhaps it would be better if I speak out my inner thoughts?

Perhaps it would then no longer be me.

Perhaps it would make more sense for me to really be alone and not worry about sensitive/ volatile human relationships. But having said that, it would just be admitting defeat to the challenges that life poses. and we human beings are not solitary animals. Furthermore, I don't think I give up that easily.

Hmmm...

On the not-so-emo-side of this entry, today had been rather fruitful in terms of keeping fit and maintaining a healthy lifestyle after my overseas trips...

Went to re-start my lap swimming at the pool (not to forget mentionning the tanning session), went for tuition and have a battle with the kid, came back and recharged my ipod nano for a run around my neighbourhood and just as I thought the day had ended at 10pm for me, my sister changed and was preparing to head out, and I followed her.

To East Coast Park for a night blading session with her friend and herself. It was certainly the first time I blade at such late hours... (though yesterday I just went there to blade at 8.30pm to about 10pm)... discovered some pretty nice new areas for blading and I'm pretty certain I'll head back that area again albeit the far distance. (tone that ass baby!)

Well, the sea breeze has this therapeutic effect (amidst the perspiration) and well, company is certainly welcomed. However, most of the friends I know do not blade. Seems like I have to do it "Al-Desmond" style. Solitary. Sometimes I can't help but think that it is not me who choose to do things by myself, but rather I am forced/ trapped into it.

Rather, I guess I just have to go find myself new social groups. At 25 and my social circle is shrinking. Not a Good Sign.

Anyway, hair is dry and eyes are droopy. legs are crampy and Soul is weary.

Good night mes amis.

Des