I always thought that for people who are in a relationship, they should always keep track of what took place when, like the first date, the first time their hands touched each other's, the first time their lips lightly brushed against each other and the list goes on you can imagine.
But sometimes, such things work better without proper documentation, without the conscious attempt to record down to the details. I call that overdoing. Shouldn't it all be based on gut feelings? Shouldn't any form of love be based on feelings since it is in itself, an emotion...? No I am not in love and do not assume that if I am writing about love means I am in love. Does writing about death means I'm dead? crazy people out there assuming things that ain't even true...
Well, after a week (sunday to sunday) and today being the first time I feel the absence of me, I suddenly feel a little empty, wishing that I could be next to me. The old me being next to I telling I that everything will be alright etc. Just to sit next to I silently without probing further...
I do know that the old me is perhaps living a better life now... getting the best out of everything... but at times, I just wish that me could just let go once and be with I. Remember to have dinner me, remember to keep your stomach full and for I will still fight to achieve his lean mean fighting machine, me should not go on a strike... I misses me and wants to say good night to me.
When can I let go of me? When do I want to be independent of me? Sometimes, I get so attached to
me that I cannot imagine living a day without me. But today, I guess I could... at least, most of the time I was just ... I. I guess when time moves on, memories fade, and in the end, we realize that we really do not need anything much. once had... good enough... right?
Of course we get greedy and tend to hold on, but sometimes, the tighter your grip, the faster it escapes. at other times, you kinda let it slip away even without doing anything. life is such a bitch at times. I wonder what I can/ should do.
Hahaha.. there's like tonnes of 'I's and 'me's in this entry... a little confused? nah, don't worry... I am just reflecting on me. :P
But sometimes, such things work better without proper documentation, without the conscious attempt to record down to the details. I call that overdoing. Shouldn't it all be based on gut feelings? Shouldn't any form of love be based on feelings since it is in itself, an emotion...? No I am not in love and do not assume that if I am writing about love means I am in love. Does writing about death means I'm dead? crazy people out there assuming things that ain't even true...
Well, after a week (sunday to sunday) and today being the first time I feel the absence of me, I suddenly feel a little empty, wishing that I could be next to me. The old me being next to I telling I that everything will be alright etc. Just to sit next to I silently without probing further...
I do know that the old me is perhaps living a better life now... getting the best out of everything... but at times, I just wish that me could just let go once and be with I. Remember to have dinner me, remember to keep your stomach full and for I will still fight to achieve his lean mean fighting machine, me should not go on a strike... I misses me and wants to say good night to me.
When can I let go of me? When do I want to be independent of me? Sometimes, I get so attached to
me that I cannot imagine living a day without me. But today, I guess I could... at least, most of the time I was just ... I. I guess when time moves on, memories fade, and in the end, we realize that we really do not need anything much. once had... good enough... right?
Of course we get greedy and tend to hold on, but sometimes, the tighter your grip, the faster it escapes. at other times, you kinda let it slip away even without doing anything. life is such a bitch at times. I wonder what I can/ should do.
Hahaha.. there's like tonnes of 'I's and 'me's in this entry... a little confused? nah, don't worry... I am just reflecting on me. :P
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The subjectication of me and the objectification of I. Am i right? Shit, i need to burn more of social psych readings.
Hey hey, want to study together ma?
hmmm... yeah, i guess you are right. hahaa,study? I ON YOU. hahaha.. we burn oil in school want? go book a table @ central forum burn till late late!!! keep the flame burning!
eh fuck, i forgot tt was my username. cuz last time i like jay zhou. WHAHAHA. kns.
btw, read Lancan's mirror stage and Freud's on sexuality for psych. more cheem than ur coursepack. HAHAH
btw, life has always been a bitch. but i still LOVE her.
-june
how much litres of oil u want to burn? u say until like that, means i have bring along my camping bag lah.
i sure scare pple away with my zombie face lah.
Des-MRS ZHOU.
hahaha u r crap la! mrs zhou.. haha i don't have the readings, give me leh! sounds interesting, i read after my exams..life's a bitch and I don't like bitches. hahah
at least not all the time
Des-a*man:
zombie nvm la!den no 1 will dare come near the table we are at!! haha
cannot la. tt will ruin my image. i still have one more sem b4 graduation loh. i am stil single leh, scare away potentials.
des-a*man:
aiyo! then u still jio me study!!! paradox leh!
hur hur. you two.
-grin-
still can study together la. but no need to burn oil till late late lah, like camping there meh?
iyo, dun scare me leh.
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